hollowed out and quiet,
the days are just rooms
i walk through
because the doors happen to be open.
there is no gold at the end of the hall,
no sudden light,
just the steady hum of the furnace
and the shadows stretching
at four in the afternoon.
i am a vessel with the plug pulled,
light as a dried leaf,
floating not because i have a destination,
but because the air is moving
and i am still here to be moved.
no mountain to climb,
no breath to catch,
no star to shine.
just the slow, gray peace
of existing
without needing a reason why.
Tag: poetry
my story
i wake with a similar pain,
an aching jolt that reminds me
the world will not be kind
for free.
the page feels heavy,
the ink as tired as i am-
like each word has to drag itself
out of a pit.
a soft breeze accompanies me,
flipping the pages with ease
as i stand by and watch,
astonished by the feat.
once it settles,
i place my hand on the next line
and feel the weight shift,
feel the story pulse beneath my palm-
steady and warm
like a heartbeat i had forgotten was mine.
the breeze returns once more,
and this time,
it wraps around my hand,
lingering, patient,
sitting with me as i begin the next chapter
in a story i have ignored for too long.
and so,
with the page open
and the air on my side,
i begin my story.
βοΈ
usually the first heavy snow
opens my soul-
a glimmer of joy,
a coldness i love and trust.
but this time,
it fell like ash,
burying all paths i knew
and all hope i had.
the world went white
as i went blue,
suffocating under the weight
of a season that could once lift me.
βοΈ
some days,
the pencil is like a stone-
heavy and unmoving
as the paper remains empty.
my mind wanders,
seeking out the passion
and emotions i tend to embrace,
but they are gone
just like the words scattered
amongst the stars.
i attempt to speak
but my mouth is dry,
craving water like i crave happiness.
all the words i want to say
are stuck in my throat,
waiting for their moment-
choking me instead.
i need my strength,
not to write,
but to be Me again.
β€οΈβπ₯
the world is not pleasant,
wanting me to shut down,
a silence it could sculpt,
blind obedience to follow.
a mistake was made
as cracks bloom under pressure
and i now shine through them,
impossible to darken.
the world will regret
ever teaching me
how to feel nothing,
because i now feel everything-
and i burn.
it remains
it keeps knocking,
begging to come in
and introduce itself.
introduce itself as peace,
as a new way to sing
in a world of silence.
silence that echoes
through the halls,
numbing to the mind.
numbness that will disappear,
but never stay quite gone
as the roof begins to crack.
the cracks scatter
and foundation cries,
unable to withstand the weight.
the weight of it all,
crashing down with force,
leaving only the door.
the door,
in which the knocking
continues.
πͺ¦
one after another,
hand in hand,
step by step,
the job will be complete.
“keep going, you’re almost there!”
“don’t give up, not yet.”
“just a little bit further…”
“i’m here for you.”
all empty,
unlike the grave i just dug
with the shovel they provided me.
π
the air grows cooler,
fresh against my skin,
carrying the scent of change.
the sun bows earlier now,
painting the sky in calm golds and reds
as leaves do the same to the ground.
the days feel slower,
even easier-
like the world is learning to breathe again,
and so am i.
peace settles in softly,
not loud or sudden,
just steady,
like it finally found its way home.
remember me.
this world shelters many,
offering warmth to the lost.
i try the same-
to give the forgotten
a place to rest,
to breathe,
to rise again.
i search the chaos
for whatβs gone missing:
a smile, a pulse,
a reason to stay.
iβll find it for you,
because you deserve to feel whole.
and when you leave-
as you should-
just remember me
as the quiet place
that held you once.
that is my purpose:
to help
until i fade.
ποΈ
i wake up,
but not really.
every day is a foggy one,
heavy and slow,
even if the sun shines.
i eat, i breathe, i move-
just enough to count as living,
not enough to count as happily.
nothing hurts,
but nothing feels right either.
itβs just existing,
quietly,
like dust that forgot
why it settled.
